Another weeks waiting.

So I had to wait. I hate waiting . I just wanted to know one way or the other.  I hate being strung along. I was pretty sure with all the bleeding I had , I didn't see how it could still be positive. That Saturday I was getting so upset and anxious I just sat down in the church, whike trying to clean and just asked God to take it, I knew I couldn't change anything myself. He was in control and to give me a calm and  a peace in my waiting. And he did. The night before my second beta I was reminded of it and realized how he had all week been faithful and given me a calm and peace. Yes I still wondered what was going on. And what would happen but wasn't overwhelmed with it. I was constantly reminded I am with you!