My Journey down roads unknown....with Him

So ultrasound and blood work Fri, and Sat. My follicles were quite developed already on Thursday. They had me take my antagonist Thursday afternoon. The antagonist helps stop your body from sending msg to developed follicles to release eggs. Friday my estrogen levels had dropped some, and sat the same.  A few follicles they couldn't find. So unfortunately my body responded very well to the meds and kind of took over, saying I known what to do and went ahead and released the eggs before the antagonist could take effect. On Sat the doctor was doing the ultrasound and explained the situation and prepared me, saying that I probably had ovulated already and that blood work would confirm. Needless to say when they called Sat afternoon, I was disappointed. Tues my doc called and discussed it in detail and explained next steps. I would rather have my body responding than not. If it wasn't responding well to meds there is little they can do. Next time they will put me on more of an...

Day 8, second ultrasound visit and bloodwork. Taking Menapure since Sat. Ben the loving husband had given me my shots every day so far. I would do it if I had to, but why if he will?!  Uterus looks great, follicles growing good, 2 good ones on right and 4 on left with some smaller ones.  Doctors will look over results this afternoon and nurse will call me when to come back for another check, probably tomorrow or Sat. Getting closer they will keep a closer watch on them.  Coffee is always a good thing! 

I thought I was ok, I thought I was content. Then after some conversations last fall, the longing came back. The longing to hold another little one in my arms. The longing To be able to tell Katie her recent prayers for a sibling had been answered. But emotions can be hard on a person. Could I even harbor the thoughts and know I would open myself to hurt? After multiple failed IUI s several years earlier,  we were emotionally and financially spent. IUI did the trick before and we had Katie, why didn't it do it again? This time I began to research other options and pray. In my research I found an awesome clinic in NY state that offered very affordable services.  Both of us decided we arent getting any younger and we want to at least know we tried  It would be in Gods hands. Ben, my every patient coach and cheerleader,  encouraged me to make a phone consult.  Three months later,  in March, I had a consult, had paperwork.  Now what? Was it the right...