My Journey down roads unknown....with Him

Today was third beta and it was 2937! Doctor said numbers still looking great! Bleeding still happening on and off so continued prayers and we just keep plugging along!

Jan 2. Day of my second beta. At this point I didn't know what to think or expect but knew God was in control and his will would be done. I guess with the holidays everyone had been in that day because they took forever to call me . Around 415 I was outside talking to Ben and decided I would call the doc on call if they didn't call by 5. Then all the sudden a voicemail showed up on my phone,,,,from them. So I played it on speaker so we both could here it . Bethany your numbers looked good and rose well. What? For real. Ben smirked and I started to cry, hugging him. It's still a day by day giving it over to God, and I know I want his will. Good news bleeding has slowed considerably , thankfully. They still want me for another blood test next week to keep watching. Then the following week I go for my first ultrasound. Continuing to pray all stays well!

So I had to wait. I hate waiting . I just wanted to know one way or the other.  I hate being strung along. I was pretty sure with all the bleeding I had , I didn't see how it could still be positive. That Saturday I was getting so upset and anxious I just sat down in the church, whike trying to clean and just asked God to take it, I knew I couldn't change anything myself. He was in control and to give me a calm and  a peace in my waiting. And he did. The night before my second beta I was reminded of it and realized how he had all week been faithful and given me a calm and peace. Yes I still wondered what was going on. And what would happen but wasn't overwhelmed with it. I was constantly reminded I am with you!

Dec 26, we came home from Christmas with my parents in SC. The holidays helped keep my mind off things. If I had been home I would have had my first blood test. That evening I started bleeding. I cried. I figured I was probably having my period or having an early loss. It was so upsetting. But God was still comforting. The next  morning I listened to bible on the way in to the doctors. Felt God with me and saying I'm with you. I talked with the doctor and she prepared me for the worst but said she has had girls bleed and still be positive . Came home and just took a nap. I was tired. The nurse finally called . "Your test came back positive and your number was 100 which is good, we like it above......" My mind was in a daze. I had prepared myself for a negative. How could it be? And I was bleeding now even more. Was it I was positive but now losing it? She wanted me to up my progestergene as it was a little low and come back next week to recheck.  Since it was the holi...

Yesterday was the day we found out what happened for the past 5 days in me! The doctor removed the device and immediately took to the lab. Then it was just waiting for a few min. She came back and told us the results.  All four eggs fertilized but two didn't make it past a couple days. One was a little slow but still growing and one was perfect! The first picture of life! So with a full bladder, we went to transfer room to transfer two little guys. The full bladder pushes on the uterus so they can see to transfer.  It didn't really take long at all. They used a belly sonagram to see and put a catheter into the uterus and released the little Embryos.  You could see it the whole time on the screen. They even printed off a picture of it for me.  B is bladder 🤤CX is cervix, Ct is catheter and the E is the Embryos.  So now we just wait. Patience, trust . Continuing to ask Him for peace, because he knows best. After Christmas I will go back for bloo...

Everything looked great! So today was retrieval Day! We ended up with 4 eggs.  So the eggs and sperm went in the little invocell and I am now incubating them for 5 days! So our next big day is Saturday when we see how many fertilized.  On average it's usually 50% but we will see. Retrieval was more painful than I thought it would be, but I did have a conscious sedative. One ovary was more behind the uterus so it was harder to get to the follicles. I got to watch her on the ultrasound screen go to follicle and empty it. Pretty neat. Afterwards I was a little loopy, but Ok. Ben bought me some yummy chicken soup and when I got home I crashed for a while.

So had second ultrasound and bloodwork  Monday. Everything looked normal. Little follicles growing slowly like they are supposed to, not crazy fast like last time. Had another ultrasound Thursday,  and some follicles were getting close to size but wanted to let others grow a bit more. Went in Friday for another. Looking good. Retrieval is set for Monday morning! Trigger shot tonight.  A little paranoid today that I'm ovulating early again so going to go in for a check in the morning to just ease my mind . This is no easy road. Emotions and hormones and life just make it crazy. Thankfully I have an awesome hubby who made me a great dinner tonight and helped me relax . Also after praying for peace  God is helping me have peace of mind as well.

So here we are, round two. Last Tues I had my baseline ultrasound and lab work on day one of my cycle.  Everthing looked good. I have been on Lupron for two weeks hopefully making sure my body won't ovulate so early this time . Started my other meds, menopure, Friday night. Grow little follicles. Tomorrow morning I have my second ultrasound and bloodwork. Always lots of emotions involved, you can't help it. Maybe a few more cautions this time, hoping nothing else happens again. It's in God's hands and no matter what, he is in control . So I choose to trust!

So after my cycle started again I got in touch again with my nurse. So since they don't do one in Nov, I will be put on the early December plan. So now its just the waiting game. But I know God has his time and his time is best.