Today I cried, today I found out I have a baby in heaven.  And today I choose to trust, trust and hold on to promises I already know. From the beginning we put this in His hands, we have no control over it anyways.

Today I was 6.5 weeks and this morning I started bleeding heavier and eventually called the doc and they told me to come on in. They did a vaginal ultrasound, and found I had miscarried.

Why do we still have to go through the pain, I don't know but He knows and I continue to choose that he knows what's best for us . 

 A friend who has gone through infertility and also lost a little one, posted this list a few days ago and it's so good. 

"Infertility is a journey. A journey that brings waves of peace then sorrow when least expected. 

Truth is what has gotten us through some of these waves: 

1. God is good in every situation 🌦

2. His will is all that matters 🎚

3. His ways are higher than mine🏔

4. His plan is better than I could imagine 📆

5. Allow yourself to grieve - it’s ok☹️

6. Healing comes with time ⏰

7. Laugh anyway 😂

8. Love always 💞

9. Live with others in mind🥰

10. Serve God and Never give up! 🔁"